Hi Everyone!
My name is Laura and I am a HUGE TMI fan who has MAJOR feels about COHF. Boy, do I have A LOT going on inside of my head about COHF, I'd love to talk about what I've been thinking today. Before I continue, I will admit, I have NOT read the book, and, I don't know if I will. Honestly, it just sounds too emotionally draining to me. What I have come across has yanked my heart right out.
For right now, I'd love to talk about Sebastian/Jonathan. I could never have imagined that I would develop the feels for him as I have. I am stunned as to the kind of feels that I've been having. Actualy, more than anyone else. I have NEVER had these kinds of feels EVER. I must be not seeing something bc these feels are worse than ANY other book that I have read (or not read)!!
I am completely aware with what he has done. Jonathan was dealt a tough and unfair hand. A tough tough life. I feel SOO bad for him. He deserved so much more. He deserved love. He deserved companionship, a family etc.. He practically had no control over what he was dealt.. It broke my heart.
So, when Clary did what she did with the sword, and his eyes turned their true color of green, and Jonathan was able to reveal himself and repent, that was just SO heartbreaking. What a brave boy/man to repent. This seemed to be a slow way of doing it, he said that he felt lighter, and was able to feel both physicaly and mentally. Why? He ddn't deserve it. It was so beautiful that he was good, repented, expressed his feelings, his dream, helped Clary, and saw how he was loved. And passed inhis mothers arms. *SOBBING* And what Clary did over the Lake?? "Forever.." Are you kidding me? Rip my heart out why don't you! And you have been! All day! And the dream?? Get me another box of tissues will you! Yes, we got to see the real Jonathan, but, for such a short amount of time, what a tease. I really am glad that he was able to turn good, he didn't have ANY demon blood in him. but..he deserved so much more. Yes, he did what he did, but, he still deserved more. I had hoped and wished that he would stay around longer, since he was good.
I just saw a drawing of Jonathan, and it was I believe one of the teasers, which stated basically, how can a boy be raised as a devil, be anything but a demon. Ever since reading this, I felt even more badly for him. He's not a demon, despite how he was raised.
For this reason, at least, Jonathan deserves a good TMI ending. What about making him a Silent Brother like Jem was, or something?? That'd help him, I believe.
As I completely acknowledge the things that he has done, I feel that he is still redeemable. Everyone on this earth is redeemable. It might be difficult to do so, but, he is. Forgive. I believe, I think, Clary had some sort of doubt regarding Sebastian's being. On his really being good. Yes, Jonathan would feel certainly the guilt, the shame and everything that went along with this, but, he would heal over time. Now, with what happened, I think, through "death", everything is in limbo. Forgive and heal.
I do REALLY hope that Cassie will somehow...somehow..bring Jonathan back in future books..
I love Sebastian/Jonathan too. His death was sad. Anyways, I was expecting either Simon, Alec, or Isabelle to die, but they didn't. I'm glad they didn't die though. I was surprised that Maia wanted to break up with Jordan. I don't remember all of CoLS, so I don't remember if there was anything that implied that she wanted to break up with him, but she seemed happy with him. Anyone else think that Maureen's death was anti-climatic? I think I was expecting a battle and then her death, but there wasn't.
